New mummy

Alhamdulillah, I am now a mother.

Things didn't go as planned. I delivered Little L a week earlier than my EDD.

It was 2.30am on 23rd May 2019, I had just fallen asleep when I felt my water broke. My first reaction was "oh, no! Not the time yet"

The moment I got up from bed, the fluid gushed out, a lot. I didn't feel any painful regular contraction, just the usual braxton hicks that I have been feeling a lot recently. I took my time to get ready, changed and put a little bit of make up. Then I went to my parents room to wake them up. Of course my mom went into panic mode right away. LOL.

While my parents and Ana got ready, I called Azhar who was in Tawau. That was when I started crying. I didn't want to go into labour alone. Throughout my pregnancy I prayed hard for Azhar to be by my side when I went into labour. I felt like I could not do vaginal delivery alone, I needed him.

On the way to the hospital, we made a stop at 7 Eleven. I grabbed a few buns and milo and ate them in the car. Oh I also had McD banana pie during the ride to the hospital.

I went straight to the labour room. I was attended by a nurse at first. Then the medical officer. This is the perk of being a doctor myself, I got attended by a medical officer instead of a houseman. The houseman was a male, kinda embarrassing if he were to perform a vaginal examination on me.

When I removed my pad to be examined, I noted the liquor has changed colour to yellow. That was not good. It means Little L might not be doing so well inside. I was worried.

The MO confirmed my finding, it was indeed a light meconium. I did a CTG and thankfully CTG was reactive. However, my Bishop score was not favourable. Bishop score is a scoring system that is used to assess the cervix, to see whether it is ready for a vaginal delivery or not. I didn't have any contraction, so unlikely my labour was going to progress any time soon.

The MO and specialist decided that I had to go for a caesarean section. Surprisingly, I felt so relieved.  I know I could go through caesarean section alone without Azhar. I saw the surgery countless times during my service as anaest MO in Hospital Ipoh. I know every single step very well. I was so calm when I told my parents and Azhar that I had to go for caesarean section. Bravo Wani!

I delivered a baby girl, via C-section on 23rd May 2019, 6.24am at HOSHAS Temerloh. She was a small baby weighing only 2.9kg and 52cm in length.

Post op, the entire day I was groggy and I vomited so many times. I couldn't open my eyes, not even to look at my baby. They must have sedated me or it was the morphine inside the intrathecal injection  or the tramal they gave me.

HOSHAS has a weird policy. They didn't allow any caretaker to stay with patients at night. So the first night I became a mother, despite the terrible dizziness, I had to change my daughter's diaper and feed her. I did it. So proud of myself. I guess I am ready to be a mother afterall. Haha.

Meet my baby, Lily Aaira Binti Azhar

Look at that mark under her left eye. That is a forcep mark. It is supposed to go away. But until today the mark is still there. She is now 5 weeks old.

Lily at Day 43 of life

Mummy loves you so much Lily.

Mummy prays you will grow up healthy and well. 

Mummy prays you will be an easy baby to care for and people around you will love you as much as mummy does. 

Mummy prays no harm will fall on you and no one will break your heart ever. 

Mummy prays for Allah to always look after you and keep you safe. 

Mummy prays for you to be anak solehah yang berakhlak mulia. 

And mummy prays for mummy and daddy to be good parents to you Lily. 

Photo taken on 1st Syawal. Our first raya as parents.